Tough Times

Again, it's been a little while since I've written. I feel compelled to write now because the last two weeks have been rough personally and I have a feeling that professionally this week will be rough. It helps to write/talk about and through things- for me anyways. Even when I don't get the answers that I want or am looking for to fulfill my questions. With family and friends like can really seem to give a person a hard time. The last two weeks lead me to evaluate my life and whether or not I think it is going in the direction I really want it to, or the direction I think God wants me to be in. After long talks, prayers and conversations the answer is...YES! I am on the right track. I am headed down the pathway that I want to be going down. I am realizing that this is what I want to do with my future and how I want to live my life. Could I do it better? Yes, of course. I think we all could do it a little better, but not on our own. I have been praying more, as I should have been doing all this time, but the realization is there. I have found a new trust in people- or at least I think I have. I am trying to still work on being a better person as a whole and remain more positive, instead of looking at the negative side of things. Life can be great even when we think it isn't, that is because the devil is pulling us down. I know that I need to fight harder to keep him at a distance and accept Jesus more and more each day, rather than question.
As a teacher I am trying to be more positve with my students. Sure, right now they are just my temporary students, but I can still make an impact. As I leave this school and move onto my next long-term placement I need to remember this too, even if it isn't a Lutheran school. I am also debaiting whether or not I should be in a Lutheran school next year. My old pastor reminded me that even public schools need good teachers with Christian foundation. I think this pastor is a very smart man for saying this, instead of trying to talk me into staying Lutheran my entire career. I spoke with my parents last night and of course my dad sides with me the whole way on that. Perhaps that is because he knows it would be best for me and knows that it would financially help me out more in the long run.
Even though these tough times have come I know that God is still going to love me and be by me no matter what. I also know that we, as a family or as friends, will always be there for each other as well. I have to thank God for those friends and family members because without them I do not know where I would be.